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Daily Deviation
September 17, 2013
To Consecrate by ~a-la-douce-memoire
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When you first met me,
All you could see was a snow white glove
jutting up from the filth I let them bury me in,
digits half curled
wrist arced and carpels tangled
as if I had once strained
to reach up for something more,
but had long since given up...
Your fingertips were my Autumn
as I walked backwards through Winter-
A sleepwalking shadow
spurred on only by sound of a melodic voice
and the faint whispers
of a promise
that I was worth more than ash and dust;
It's been two years since you first coaxed me up from the mire.
I opened my eyes into a hurricane,
reached out to grasp at the hem of your dress
only to come up short
when I found
I was still chest-deep in the mud;
You slipped away between the raindrops,
Leaving me with one last promise:
"Follow me.
You can do this."
I put my hands to the ground,
pushed with everything I was-
Pushed till my ribs cracked,
my tendons tore,
till my arms snapped like rotten limbs
and I bled out from my eyes.
But I pushed.
The next time you saw me
I was up to my knees in grime.
It clung to me like a parasite,
wove itself in to my blood and bones
refusing to let go;
I was a walking contagion-
oozing sickness and toxicity,
sweating pain through my pores;
but you saw my sickly smile
and you smiled for me too...
That's when I decided
I had to keep going.
That's when I knew,
underneath all the stains and bruises-
I was still something beautiful.
It's been two years since I watched you walk away.
I am not the man
who would walk with you through the streets of New Delhi
picking through the same market we've gone to every day,
listening to the words of the same guru,
as if we were coming together for the first time;
I am not the man
who would watch the sun rise over Paris
through the blinds of our smoke-hazed studio
idly entangling his fingers with your hair-
fancying how he could capture this moment
with the pen perched between his lips;
I am not the man
who would erupt into joyous laughter
whilst he raises his age-worn stein
in a toast to how fat and jolly we've become,
discretely reaching for a third helping
over the plates of our children's children;
I am still wading through the muck,
trudging out of the bog of this city.
I am ocean bound,
set to wash away the last of this sickness,
aiming to leave behind
the garbage you found me buried in.
I am the man who will be.
I am the man who is becoming.
What I'm trying to say,
Is that I am not yet that man.
More than that, what I wanted to say,
What I've been dying to tell you-
Is that I'm glad I got to see you again;
Because I've been wanting to thank you
for introducing me to myself.
All you could see was a snow white glove
jutting up from the filth I let them bury me in,
digits half curled
wrist arced and carpels tangled
as if I had once strained
to reach up for something more,
but had long since given up...
Your fingertips were my Autumn
as I walked backwards through Winter-
A sleepwalking shadow
spurred on only by sound of a melodic voice
and the faint whispers
of a promise
that I was worth more than ash and dust;
It's been two years since you first coaxed me up from the mire.
I opened my eyes into a hurricane,
reached out to grasp at the hem of your dress
only to come up short
when I found
I was still chest-deep in the mud;
You slipped away between the raindrops,
Leaving me with one last promise:
"Follow me.
You can do this."
I put my hands to the ground,
pushed with everything I was-
Pushed till my ribs cracked,
my tendons tore,
till my arms snapped like rotten limbs
and I bled out from my eyes.
But I pushed.
The next time you saw me
I was up to my knees in grime.
It clung to me like a parasite,
wove itself in to my blood and bones
refusing to let go;
I was a walking contagion-
oozing sickness and toxicity,
sweating pain through my pores;
but you saw my sickly smile
and you smiled for me too...
That's when I decided
I had to keep going.
That's when I knew,
underneath all the stains and bruises-
I was still something beautiful.
It's been two years since I watched you walk away.
I am not the man
who would walk with you through the streets of New Delhi
picking through the same market we've gone to every day,
listening to the words of the same guru,
as if we were coming together for the first time;
I am not the man
who would watch the sun rise over Paris
through the blinds of our smoke-hazed studio
idly entangling his fingers with your hair-
fancying how he could capture this moment
with the pen perched between his lips;
I am not the man
who would erupt into joyous laughter
whilst he raises his age-worn stein
in a toast to how fat and jolly we've become,
discretely reaching for a third helping
over the plates of our children's children;
I am still wading through the muck,
trudging out of the bog of this city.
I am ocean bound,
set to wash away the last of this sickness,
aiming to leave behind
the garbage you found me buried in.
I am the man who will be.
I am the man who is becoming.
What I'm trying to say,
Is that I am not yet that man.
More than that, what I wanted to say,
What I've been dying to tell you-
Is that I'm glad I got to see you again;
Because I've been wanting to thank you
for introducing me to myself.
Literature
A Battle of Extremes
(MR. CYNICISM, MS. SINCERE, and DR. PASSION congregate for battle.)DR. PASSION
Where's all the booze, guys? Where's the music? I thought this was supposed to be a party.
MR. CYNICISM
This is a battle, not a party, good doctor. You may want to remove your lamp shade so you can be prepared to fight.
DR. PASSION
I didn't hear anything about no violence at this here get-together-battle-party-what-have-you.
MR. CYNICISM
That is the definition of battle: Where two or more parties come together and -
DR. PASSION
- come together and make a whole lot of excitement between them. See? That's what I'm saying.
MR. CYNICISM
I should have anticipated s
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Foresight
Debra Mae was an astonishingly good programmer.
Her code always worked correctly the first time, and she never missed a deadline. Her workspace was immaculate, but curiously devoid of personal effects. No framed pictures, no toys, just her small collection of pens lined up according to color and an inbox for the occasional old-school paper input.
Her computer was equally immaculate. Nothing extra on her desktop, no stray icons. If one peeked at her browser history there’d be nothing there but work-related google searches and company stuff.
She dressed neatly but very plainly. I suspected she had four dresses in her wardrobe an
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defeathered
and this is where we bury our hearts,
between self-defeating personality disorders
and burnt bridges and midnight ramblings
we promise ourselves aren’t true;
embedding our memories in forsaken homes
like it is a conscious decision to shed
our wings (reptiles don’t fly)
and maybe I am the monster of every
myth: wide-eyed and jagged toothed and
looking to regain a piece of myself the
world borrowed, many moons ago
as I falter and stumble over my own unaware
feet, wreaking havoc, reeking of self-acquittal--
all I ever wanted to do was belong.
dreams are flaws much like the hearts we
flaunt on our sleeves, and I seem to
have len
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Beautiful story. You are very talented. Well deserved DD.